Despite all the clashes in opinions and squabblings that we had...
We still love you...
Happy Birthday...
Love,
XL
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4:18 PM
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Friday, May 26, 2006
[I am a BIG BABY!]
Aunty Fhely fed me with my cough mixture last night... She said: ahhhh.....! very sweet, strawberry flavour you know... Me: Aunty!you think I am still a baby? Can't believe that she tried to coax me into taking my cough mixture...I guess I never grow up... my dear friend told me this today: even if one door closes for you, there will be another door that will open up for you I just hope that the 2nd door will not be slammed against my face *I must be optimistic* p.s. revision has been bad =( but I must make use of the remaining little time to do my best...
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2:20 PM
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Wednesday, May 24, 2006
[Has life been back to normal?]
I dropped the bowl of meat stew today... I stood there in daze looking at the broken glass pieces The glass pieces shook me awake when one caught onto my toe... Ouch! I took nearly an hour plus to get the place cleaned up and I realised that I was so bad in household work when I pricked my fingers with the little glass bits... Is the dropping of the glass bowl a sign? A sign that something bad will fall upon me? I hope not as recent events has got me very very upset... I can't take another trauma. Recent happenings has got me thinking about what will happen in future... As what I want may not be what it is supposed to be in future... The truth of reality hurts =( p.s. I really feel that cooking for your love ones is so blissful...I am trying to get some secret recipes from mum and learn to whip up a decent meal =)
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10:30 PM
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Monday, May 22, 2006
[......]
Dear blog.... I................... ...................... ....................... am sad............. =( why do you have to put me through this? Rgds, Jasmine
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2:07 AM
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Sunday, May 21, 2006
[far far away...]
I feel like I am sitting on a boat drifting away to a cast off land... Losing the grip and connection to reality... Trying to hold on tight to my faith till I lose control of it... Hoping that every grab will not be futile one... Eventhough that I feel that I will lose it anytime soon... *heave a huge sigh* * I will slumer away all these thoughts in my slumber land* p.s. I have a huge craving for crabs...wanna try either the amk one or @ defu lane...slurp...=)
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4:15 PM
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Saturday, May 20, 2006
[bad day]
It's quite sad to know that when you are feeling down due to your recent caught of flu virus...
that no one cares about you...
or rather no one knows about it... yet, i was worried sick about other matters...
anyway I am fine...I am learning to fight it away! haha
I have learnt to divert this heart-wrenching feeling into something more tiring
at least I got my hammy to play with
she just puts on a smile to my face everytime I see her little moves - so adorable =)
*I am contented*
*really*
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1:07 PM
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Friday, May 19, 2006
[random post...]
study = waste of time I rather sit on my couch and sip on a warm cup of tea... *cough*
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6:38 PM
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Tuesday, May 16, 2006
[nightmare unfolded...]
I got this very bad dream yesterday or rather it should be a nightmare The thought of it just gives me the creeps. It was such a bad one that it woke me from bed early in the morning. till this moment when I am blogging, I don't wish to share it but deep inside I got this urge to say out... It happened in this indoor swimming pool on a normal day...there were quite a few people swimming in the pool. Noise and laughter all the way, kids splashing water against one another, the sound of every stroke made by each swimmer against splashing water... not long, all sounds died down as it starts to get late... it was left with only a few swimmers in the pool... suddenly, this guy heard thrumping sounds from below, noises made by knocking against some steel surface..."thump!thump!thump!..." It wasn't that loud but as he swims deeper, the sound gets louder. Each and every sound made a ripple effect up onto the water surface...curious-minded guy made a dive down the pool and to his atonishment, the thumping sound was coming from a huge water pipe below...he place his hand on the pipes and was shocked how this could happen... then after he alerted the person-in-charge who immediately called the relevant people to do a pipe check...they did a pipe suction and clearance but nothing could stop the sound.Thus,the plumber decided to open up the pipe.... There were a few girls at the second floor looking down towards the pool to see what was at fault.Suddenly, they heard someone opening the door from behind...the girls screamed as what they saw was a friend who passed away many years ago standing infront of them... at the same time, the plumbers found a corpse inside the pipe.... the thumping sound was made due to the attempt to get out of the pipe... OMG! I woke up in fright right after that...I couldn't get to sleep any longer... perhaps it doesn't sound that frightening the way I write it but just trying to recall this nightmare just freaks me out!!! I sometimes wonder if dreams could be real? The best they don't as I see the likeliness of dreams turining bad than good... *My imaginations are running wild now..thinking of things that I shouldn't..* I pray and hope for sweet dreams to fall upon me tonight
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3:53 AM
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Friday, May 12, 2006
[I guess it really doesn't pays to be kind]
Finally I got my eyebrow trimmed after so long...
Ben says my eyebrow can be comparable to Jingyou...what??!! compare mine to a guy's eyebrow??Incorrigble!!! haha
Got my hair cut again....hair looks damn short now. I don't understand why hairdressers like to advise girls to cut the hair much shorter when they only want a trim. I wanted only a trim but in the end I think I got my hair cut by 3 inches in length!!!!=( There was no mercy to my fringe too!!! =( I had a bad haircut...
But what can you ask for when I only pay such a small amount for a haircut?
I guess complaining will just add on to me woes so I shall STOP!!!
I will then continue to complain about other matters... I guess being nice or kind is more like a non-rewardable kind of act as when you try to do something to benefit one party...it seems to cause the unhappiness in the other. Realism view is bloody right when you view such situations...everything is based on zero-sum assumption. Human nature is flawed!Flawed!Flawed!=( Guess you have sensed my unhappiness..sighz.. I went to the dessert shop at Bugis today to try out this HK desserts.Shared seats with a couple as I couldn't get myself a empty table.The guy's dessert came first which was ice red bean soup with ice-cream!!!Yummy!!! The girl's dessert came which was mango sago(same with what I ordered)...she ate a few mouthful and not long after she realised that her original order of papaya milk dessert became mango milk dessert...they ask the waitress over so that she can change it back to her original order but the waitress asked her to pay instead. Seeing that the waitres attitude was a bit bad and knowing that the mix up of desserts was also kinda my fault, I decided to help. I told the waitress to change the dessert for them...the waitress reluctantly agreed but my actions was greeted by angered stares from the girl. Not only that I didn't receive a nice reply of thank you but yet was 'rewarded' by such responses... =( I was crossing over this side road at Orchard on the same day...Orchard road was very crowded, long stretch of cars waiting to turn into the main road. The car infront of me suddenly flashed her hazard light and pull her car over to stop, impatient cars behind her started to horn impatiently. She waved to her daughter across the road wanting her to cross over...her two friends who were with her started to wave back to her mum and then giggle happily. Talking and laughing over her actions(as she nearly fell due to slippery floor) and then unwillingly walking down the stairs. I witnessed the whole incident in dismay... I also don't know what what got into me as I cross over the road and told her to cross over to her mum's car quickly. Bad move. She gave me the stare(that i got once just now) and slowly walk over without bothering about me. Some people say that I shouldn't even bother to go tell the girl...Oh whatever! Just view me as trying to poke into other people's business....I don't care...I just finally come to realise that it really doesn't pays to be kind.
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11:32 AM
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Wednesday, May 10, 2006
[Mentally drained...]
I am mentally drained... haven't had enough sleep for the past few days... I look so old and haggard... 2 papers within 24hours is just too much for me... cramping all the last min work and vomiting all out at the end... damn not effective...never learn from me and try this out... doesn't works and yet kills you in the end... waste of effort off for my nap! *snooze*
